Thursday, August 9, 2018

When life is going well...

it's easy to become complacent.  Worry and stress disappear, your guard is lowered and you cruise along like nothing bad will ever happen again, and then one day, out of the blue, BAM!  Life throws a curveball that sucks the breath right out of you.  That's what happened to me yesterday.

I have no problem standing up and admitting that I'm not overly fond of change.  When I like something, I don't want it 'new and improved'.  I'm satisfied with it just the way it is.  I'm that person you know who buys three pairs of the same style shoe so that when the first pair wears out, there's a pair to replace it, and so on.  (I do this with clothing, too.)  But it's easy to become too comfortable with life, and apparently, the Universe decided mine needed a little shaking up.  Gee, thanks, 'verse.

Without going into detail, the next few days, weeks, possibly even months are going to be tough for my family.  But this challenge won't do me in because I've faced it before in times when we've been a lot worse off than we are now and we've made it through, more often than not for the better.  It's just those damn stormy skies appear a bit scary right now.  My fears have already begun manifesting in my dreams, leaving me tossing and turning and restless at night, yet I know they will pass once I embrace this unexpected change thrust upon me.  And while I'm scared and sad and a wee bit fearful, my brain is already scrambling to find a solution, mapping out new avenues to travel, daring to take chances where previously I've been too contented to try.

Change isn't always a bad thing; more times than not it motivates us to try something new, rattles us out of limbo, dares us to become creative, even when we're nursing the pain of insecurity.  The challenge facing my family and me is daunting, but I'm up for it.

Time to aim in a different direction...